HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!

This has truly been a wonderful year. Dec.21st marked the two year anniversary of my favorite/second mother's going home to be with our heavenly father. Now at first I cried all day, well really since Dec. 1st I been having "eye allergies". In all honesty I was sad because I didn't get to say goodbye.....I had a show the night she went into a coma, and the thing was she was on her way to come and see me....it was opening night. Long story short she never made it. Christmas used to be my favorite holiday and hers but sadly I cant wait for it to pass......on a lighter note being a vegan does help me stay healthy along with a very productive workout schedule :) TO EVERYONE WHO IS ANYONE HAVE A BLESSED AND WONDERFULLY AWESOME HOLIDAY AND KNOW THAT GOD IS THE REASON FOR THE SEASON!!!! ONE LUV

OFFICIAL

It's but funny but today outside of any other day I just feel Official and it's not in the sense that I did something BIG or started a new agenda. I just feel Official. In the way I see myself, carry myself and how I handle my business it's just what you would call Official. CHEA!!!

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GOD IS GOOD!!!

I AM SOOOOOOOO HAPPY GOD IS SO GOOD AND I LOVE HIM SO MUCH FOR PUTTING THE RIGHT PEOPLE IN MY LIFE AND ALWAYS KNOWING JUST WHAT I NEED IN ORDER TO SURVIVE DAY TO DAY. IT'S SO FUNNY HOW GOD WORKS TOO HE SHOWS USE SO MUCH GRACE AND MERCY WHEW!!!!!! IM JUST SO BLESSED!!!!!! ONE LUV

SASSY, SEXY, COOL

“Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring.” ― Marilyn Monroe, Marilyn: Her Life in Her Own Words

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YEA......

OUT OF EVERYTHING THAT HAS BEEN GOING ON LATELY, I MUST SAY THAT I AM TRULY HAPPY AND I KNOW EXACTLY WHERE I AM GOING AND WHO IS NOT COMING ALONG FOR THE RIDE. CURRENTLY.......JUST THANKING GOD FOR PEACE......

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YES I AM A BITCH!

Much like Amerie's song 'One Thing' I have to say that yes "its this one thing that got me jumping" And that thing is men.....smh Now today I called myself going for a nice little stroll, trying to enjoy the day when I see these young men sitting on a bench together chatting about a young woman that I am guessing one of them were interested in. Now as I am passing the gentlemen (for lack of a better word) had something to say, I can not help but hear one of them say, "See look at her, I can tell just by the way that she walk she is a Bitch." I am the only female walking out here so naturally I had to assume they were referring to me. REALLY!!!! A Bitch? Hmmmmmmmm well if they mean that I take my school, work, and family seriously, then YES I AM A BITCH! If they mean that I don't want a man whose's pants hang lower than his drawers, then YES I AM A BITCH! If they mean that I don't take pity on them just because they are black because  I know the power and potential of every black man, then YES I AM A BITCH! If they mean that I am a strong proverbs 31 woman with the mind of a genius, then YES I AM BITCH! If they mean that I wont support them as they sit and do nothing then, YES I AM A BITCH! If they mean that I think that I can be more than what the world thinks I should be so I push myself beyond limits that society has tried to create then, YES I AM A BITCH! If they mean that I will not settle for anything less than what God has for me then, YES I AM A BITCH! If they mean that they know I would never talk to them because they know they could never  do nothing more than sit on their butts and rate woman they don't know and will never have then, YES I AM A BITCH!  But, if they are referring to that of a female dog?....I am sorry but a BITCH don't live here!



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NATURAL IS ALWAYS BETTER!!! A fresh start and a new beginning....
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It's about time :)

Have you ever found yourself wondering what is really going on as if no one is included in this crazy world of your's? Well that's what I feel like and I choose to do something about that!!! I am taking risks starting TODAY!!!!

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Loves Truest Form.....

Man the funny thing about love is you never know when it will hit. Not a time, date, place, nothing all you know is once you encounter it you cant go back to the way you used to be. Now three years ago I would have sworn up and down that I was madly in love in what I thought was the relationship of a lifetime but now looking back on my niieve ways I see it was nothing more than physical acceptance that I mistaked for love. LOL now its funny really. I mean no one could tell me anything I just knew that he was the guy of my dreams but what I failed to realize was while I was sleep he was wide awake smh. I learned a lot from that relationship honestly I did. Now I have been in a beautifully commmitted relationship with a MAN that is more than just a friend but a counselor, a mentor, and my best friend. He has always been there for me no matter what. He and I have been through hell and back with our families...well mostly mine accepting the fact that he is not of the same race as I, but with great persistance and dedication we have made it to a beautiful two years :) I would have to say next to God he is one of the greatest things that have happened to me. As I write this I am crying tears of joy. Just the thought of this man puts a smile on my face. Today he and I both decided to give our lives to God for the second time and it felt so good its like the last piece of our puzzle was filled and that is one of the best feelings in the world. He and I have had our fights, breaks, and resume's lol but at the end of the day we know what we mean to each other and that along with god is what has kept us together this long. Now I don't know what the future holds no matter how much I kneel and pray but I know that as long as I have God my family and him I am complete :) that is all there is to it. Love conquers all things and with those three I can take over the world.
I Love You Chiemela Nwulu with everything that I am :) MUAHHHHH!!!! ONE LUV

Save Him (Song)

She loves him more

He loves her more

Seems like they will never let each other go

Laughing and kissing

It's a match made in heaven...

Behind the rings on their fingers,

Imprints the ink deep in the inner that has stained their souls together now...

Stained soul mates forever now

Seems like they've made it to the other side

where the grass is greener and the sky is always blue

And it goes on forever and ever but theres only room for two...

Deep at night I'm awakened from my dreams, next door,

Yelling cries, Mercy

She's begging please....

"Don't end my life you're all I need and darling I will never leave,"

And then she prayed on her knees, she said,

"Save him, save him from the hand that he beats me on"

Dark clouds cover her paradise,

She covers her eyes and hides, behind enemy lines

And she walks through the night with her child in her arms

she's thrown back hostage...

See twenty years ago when she was just ten years old

Lost in imagination she was left alone

And pops had nothing to let his anger on....

Oh he beat he cold

She used to pray on her knees

She said: "Save him, save him from the hand that he beats me on.

Save him, save him from the hand that he beats me on.

Save him, save him from the hand that he beats me on..."

Deep at night I'm awakened from my dreams,

Next door...yelling cries

Mercy
She's begging please, begging please, begging please, begging please,

"Get up, Get up" he brings her to her feet,

And smacks her down till she falls to the ground,

And over and over again, he brings her to her feet until she can no longer stand....

And still the beating never ends.....

On and on and on it goes

until he brings out a gun, and says to her "Stop crying and bring me my son,"

She cries harder and harder,

he cries harder and harder....

She says, "Baby please don't don't do this"

Two shots to her chest

And a blow to his own head

She quickly loses breath and blood rushes to their bed

And baby cries his eyes out.....

Save him, save him from the hand that he beats me on

Save him, save him from the hand that he beats me on

Save him, save him from the hand that he beats me on

She loves him more

He loves her more

Seems like they will never let each other go

Laughing and kissing its a match made in heaven.....

R.I.P Kalia Thompson and Anthony Walls.....yall loved each other to death 2-17-2011

My Me

So many times I have wondered..

Who am I?

Just until a couple of days ago I couldn't even begin to give an answer.

I knew what I was told so naturally it was what I believed.

Looking at myself for who I really am showed me this: I am the saint and the sinner because my thoughts fall short of my actions at times,

I am the resurrected, born again christian that dosent believe in religion. I am the wise man and the fool all in one flesh.

I am the mathematician with applied application and perseverance.

I am she which you love to hate but can't help to love because of fate.

I am that faith wished upon by the hopeless and sorrowful.

I am that barrier between you and that true connection.

I am my own enemy and your worst because my mindset has been cursed. I am the song that won't escapse your mind.

I am the dust, I am the grass in which you trust your feet.

I am the wind in which your eye gates are never satisfied changing opinion with every new blow. I am the sea peaceful and calm though pushed to my limits I can kill.

I am made in my fathers image, his best work yet in tanted perception.

I am who you want to be, who you want to see, I am ME.......My Me.

****I found this poem in my old journal the other day and I decided to share it with my blog family, hope you enjoy :)**** ONE LUV

The Reason Why I am Stuttering.....

In all my life I have never been able to say that I love someone as much as I love you. At times it gets to be too much even for myself but I can't just walk away. THe way you say my name when you've had a long day or how you kiss my forehead with so much passion. Honestly it makes no sense to me. The reason you love me that is.....I mean I am very bossy I tend to be stuburn and bull headed. I never quit or give up on anything when we argue, I always try to find a way to be right. I have a tendency to cry when I hear a certin song and I think of you. This love thing to me is so new and up until now very much so unwanted.ONE LUV